Once again, I'm having sleepless nights. I'm really physically sooooo tired. But yet I wake up every 2 hours feeling refreshed and alert, thinking it's already 6am in the morning. To my horrow, it's always 2 am. Then, I'll wake up again at 4am. Finally, when I wake up at 6am, I feel ultra tired. I really wonder what's wrong with me.
Anyway, we had prayer meeting for the CGL, CGC and SOT students in our zone yesterday. I was contemplating to go because I had a nagging headache. In the end, I dragged my feet there BUT I was glad that I went.
Pastor Zhuang shared about Hebrews 11, where the saints are cheering us on from heaven. He said that our life is like a relay. We are the last runner of the relay team. No matter how hard and far ahead the 1st 3 runners were, if the last runner dropped the baton, slowed down or gave up on the race, the whole team will still lose. So the saints who had fought their fight and won the race were those runners in our team that had gone before us. Being the last runner, if we slow down our pace, drop the baton or give up, we will be letting the saints down and their efforts will be wasted. My heart sank when I heard that. I felt so guilty that I had slowed down in my race, no longer urgent about reaching out to my friends and giving my 100% to win the lost for Jesus. Tears flowed down my cheeks uncontrollably as I worshiped God and was ministered by Him.
"And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us." =Heb 11:39-40=
I guess we were all tired and God really refreshed all of us and touched us in a great way. I pray that this touch from God will not be wasted or just a one time event, but that I/we will continue on with the fervency and urgency that God has placed in my heart.
Run, Jiahui Run!
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